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I KILLED A MONSTER, BUT LOST MY FATHER: CONFESSION OF THESEUS, THE HIDDEN PRINCE

  • December 9, 2025
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I KILLED A MONSTER, BUT LOST MY FATHER: CONFESSION OF THESEUS, THE HIDDEN PRINCE

 

I didn’t grow up in a palace.
I grew up with a secret.

People in my town knew me as the grandson of a small-king, a fisherman’s helper, a boy who trained too hard for a life that looked too simple. Only my mother’s eyes ever betrayed anything different. Every time I asked about my father, she’d smile in that painful way and say, “He’s… far away. But he had his reasons.” Then she’d change the subject, and I’d be left staring at the doorway, wondering what kind of “reason” makes a man leave his own son in the dark.

My grandfather raised me like he was sharpening a weapon he couldn’t admit existed. At dawn, he would yank the blanket off me and shove a wooden sword into my hand. While other boys were still rubbing sleep from their eyes, I was bleeding on the training field. Sword, spear, wrestling, running until my lungs burned. And when I asked why, he would only say, “You were not born for an easy life, Theseus.” That was all. No explanation. No future. Just sweat, bruises, and the feeling that somewhere, someone had written my name into a story they forgot to tell me.

There was a rock at the edge of our land. A stupid detail, right? Just a rock. But in my life there has always been a rock: a solid, heavy thing everyone walks around, never talks about. This one sat there like a question mark carved from the earth. Whenever I got too curious about my father, my grandfather’s eyes would drift toward that stone. He never touched it. He never let me try. “You’re not ready,” he’d say. Ready for what? He wouldn’t answer.

One day, the living legend himself arrived—Heracles. The man whose stories I’d heard since I could hold a stick and call it a club. He strode into our hall with the skin of a lion draped over his shoulders, and every grown man tried to stand taller. He laughed loud, ate more than ten men, and drank like the sea. When he threw his lion skin over a chair, its head landed staring at us with glassy eyes and bared fangs.

All the other boys ran. I remember their screams echoing off the stone. But to me, that head looked like a threat inside my home. I didn’t think, I just moved. I grabbed a guard’s sword and charged the “beast.” Of course it was just a skin, but I didn’t know that. I hacked at it like my life depended on it.

The hall went silent. Then Heracles laughed so hard the wooden beams shook. He grabbed me by the shoulders, looked me straight in the eye and said, “This boy will carve his name into the sky one day.” For the first time, I felt something strange—not pride, not exactly. It was like the world had just whispered, “Yes, you. You’re not crazy for feeling bigger than this town.”

Years passed. Muscles grew where boyish softness had been. The whispers around me got louder. People said I was too strong, too restless, too “much” for a place like Troezen. On my sixteenth birthday, my mother’s hands trembled when she placed bread in front of me. She avoided my eyes all morning. Finally, she said, “Come. It’s time.”

We walked to the field. To the rock.

My grandfather was there, standing beside it like a guard in front of a locked door. The sea wind was cold, but my back was slick with sweat. I knew, in my bones, this moment would tear my life in two: before this rock, and after.

My mother’s voice shook as she spoke. In pieces, like she was afraid saying the whole thing at once would destroy us both, she told me the truth. A king who couldn’t have children. A visit. A night of wine. A prophecy about a child who would change a city. A hurried goodbye. A promise: if the child was a boy and strong enough to lift this stone one day, he should come to Athens with what lay beneath it.

Then she said his name.
Aegeus. King of Athens. My father.

I’d imagined a hundred possibilities for my origins: a dead father, a poor one, a coward, a hero gone missing at sea. I had not prepared myself for “living king of a great city who hid you like a shameful secret.” My chest burned so hot I thought I might vomit.

My grandfather nodded toward the rock. “If you can’t lift it, you’re not ready to face his world anyway.”

I put my hands on the cold stone. It didn’t feel like earth. It felt like every unanswered question of my life pressed into one impossible weight. My muscles screamed, my legs shook, my teeth clenched so hard I tasted blood. And then—slowly, groaning like the ground itself was protesting—it moved.

Underneath were a pair of worn royal sandals and a bronze sword in a simple scabbard. Not jewels. Not gold. Just proof. Proof that I was not crazy. Proof that somewhere in a grand palace, there was a man who had chosen to give me up instead of fight for me.

I strapped on the sandals. They fit as if they’d been waiting. I picked up the sword, and it balanced in my hand like it had known it belonged there all along. My mother cried. My grandfather looked proud and sad at the same time, like a man who’d finally released an arrow he’d been holding at full draw for years.

Grandfather offered me a ship. “Sail to Athens,” he said. “It’s safer. Faster. You’ll arrive clean, unhurt, presentable.” Presentable. Like a package being delivered to the palace that once refused to sign for it.

Something in me snapped. “No,” I said. “If I arrive at his door by sea, untouched, with no scars and no dust on my feet, I’ll always be the hidden mistake he left behind. I’ll walk. And I’ll make the road remember my name.”

They called it recklessness. Maybe it was. But when you’ve grown up feeling like a question, you start craving answers that draw blood.

The road to Athens was not a road. It was a test. Bandits who tied travelers to bent pine trees and tore them apart for fun. Men who called themselves “kings of the road” and treated people like trash left on their territory. Monsters that were half myth, half warning tale told to keep children close to home.

I met them all. I didn’t win every fight easily. People like to tell stories as if I walked through the world untouched. That’s a lie. I bled plenty. I lost breath, time, sleep. I gained nightmares. But each time someone tried to break me the way my father had broken his promise, rage rose up and carried me where fear couldn’t.

One bandit, Periphetes, swung a club as thick as a tree trunk. He laughed when he saw me—just a lanky teenager with a secondhand sword. “Go home, boy,” he said. “This road eats princes.” The word hit me like a slap. Princes. He didn’t know how close he was to the truth. I didn’t go home. I learned the rhythm of his swings, felt the wind of that club graze my cheek, and when he overextended, I drove my sword into the space he’d left unguarded. When he fell, he looked up at me like he’d just realized I wasn’t prey.

I walked away shaking, not from fear, but from the realization of what it meant to fight back. For the first time, I wasn’t just the consequence of someone else’s prophecy. I was choosing who I wanted to be.

By the time Athens rose in the distance, my cloak was torn, my sword scarred, and my heart harder than when I’d left. I stood on a hill and stared at the city bathed in late sun—white stone, bustling markets, a harbor full of ships. Somewhere behind those walls, my father lived as if nothing in his past had my name on it.

I entered the city like any traveler, dusty and anonymous. I listened. People talk. They talked of Aegeus, of his worry for an heir, of cousins plotting for the throne, of a cruel tribute paid to a foreign king—every few years, a group of Athenian youths sent to Crete, fed to a monster in a labyrinth no one returned from. My stomach twisted when I realized: the man who had hidden me all my life now sent other people’s children to die in his place.

Part of me wanted to turn around and walk back to Troezen. At least there, my anger made sense. In Athens, everything was complicated and loud and full of bloodless politics. But I had not walked through bandits and monsters just to give up at the palace gates.

When I finally stood before Aegeus, I didn’t announce myself. Not at first. I watched him. He was older than I’d imagined—tired eyes, shoulders heavy with the weight of a crown that never felt secure. For a moment, the angry boy inside me went quiet. This wasn’t some godlike figure from a story. This was just a man who had been afraid.

But that didn’t make it hurt less.

He watched me too, suspicion flickering across his face when he saw my sandals, my sword. There are certain details only a father notices. “Where did you get those?” he asked, voice tight.

I told him. About the rock. About my mother. About the promise he’d made like a coward who wanted destiny without responsibility. As I spoke, the color drained from his face. His hands shook.

When I finished, there was a long silence. You know the moment when someone could fall to their knees and say, “I was wrong, I’m sorry, I’ve waited my whole life to fix this”? That moment arrived… and passed. Instead, he placed a shaky hand on my shoulder and whispered, “My son.” It was something. It was not enough.

I could have screamed. I could have walked out. Instead, I looked past him at the city he ruled. The people who came to him for help. The news about the children scheduled to sail to Crete as tribute to King Minos and his monster. And in that second, I understood something ugly and true: my story wasn’t just about me anymore.

“I’ll go,” I said.

He recoiled, as if I’d slapped him. “No. You just arrived. I won’t send my own son to die.”

“But you’ll send others?” I asked quietly.

The look in his eyes told me everything. Fear. Guilt. Confusion. Love, maybe. But love that came too late and bent in on itself. “Athens needs peace,” he whispered. “We are not ready for war with Crete.”

I thought of the stone. Of the hidden sword. Of the boy who had grown up in someone else’s shadow. “Then let me be the one who doesn’t come back,” I said. “At least this time it will be your blood that pays, not theirs.”

People like to paint this moment as noble sacrifice. Truth? My courage was mixed with anger and a twisted longing to finally matter to him. If I died, he would be forced to remember me. He would not be able to hide me under any rock, any prophecy, any political excuse.

The day we boarded the ship, the pier was thick with crying parents. I met their eyes one by one. Sons and daughters were being given up so the city could sleep at night. I wondered if their fathers would ever truly forgive themselves.

Among us was a girl named Ariadne, daughter of Minos, who would later become the knot in my heart I still don’t know how to untie. But that’s another wound.

We reached Crete. The palace of Minos gleamed like it had never heard the word “mercy.” They tried to dress our deaths up as spectacle. Trumpets, guards, an entrance to the labyrinth yawning like the open throat of some ancient beast. The air smelled of damp stone and old fear.

Ariadne found me before we entered. She was nothing like I expected—a princess with eyes full of questions instead of mockery. “I don’t want you to die,” she said bluntly. No games. Just truth.

“No one ever wants the story to end with a corpse,” I joked. But my hands were shaking.

She pressed a ball of thread and a sword into my hands. “This will help you find your way back. If you make it.” There was something in her gaze I recognized: the look of someone trapped by her father’s decisions, just like me.

“Why help me?” I asked.

“Because if you kill the monster,” she whispered, “maybe we both get to live different lives.”

Then the guards dragged us to the labyrinth’s mouth.

The first thing that hit me inside was the smell: damp, rust, and something rotten that didn’t belong to any animal I had known. The walls were high and tight, the torches few and far between. Every step echoed like a warning.

I tied the end of Ariadne’s thread at the entrance and let it unspool behind me. Each turn, each shadow, felt like it was breathing. The youths around me tried to be brave, but fear has its own scent; the labyrinth was soaked in it.

One by one, I sent them back with the thread when the terror became too much. “Follow it,” I told them. “Live.” I did not know if they would truly escape. I only knew I didn’t want their deaths on my conscience on top of everything else.

Eventually, I was alone.

That’s when I heard it—the heavy, deliberate sound of hooves on stone. Not the quick clatter of a normal animal. Slow. Confident. Like death taking its time because it already knows how this ends.

Then he appeared.

The Minotaur was bigger than the stories. A towering body, muscles rippling under dark fur, the head of a bull with eyes that were too human to dismiss as “beast.” This was not some mindless creature. This was rage given shape. He stared straight at me, not at the torch, not at the shadows—right at me. For a moment, we simply breathed the same air, two sons cursed by the choices of their fathers.

I stepped forward, sword ready, heart pounding so hard I could feel it in my throat. He lowered his head, horns catching the torchlight like twin blades. Behind him, the labyrinth seemed to move, rocks falling, chains swinging, flames licking higher as if the whole place existed just for this one instant.

He charged.

Time slowed.

I remember the flash of horns coming straight for my chest, the ground trembling under his weight, my cape whipping behind me like a torn banner. I leapt, not away but toward him, bringing my sword down with everything I had ever felt—anger at my father, grief for the children fed to this darkness, fury at a world that built monsters and then acted shocked when they killed.

Steel met flesh. Pain exploded in my arm as one horn grazed me, tearing skin and fabric. The force of the impact sent rocks flying, chains snapping taut, fire scattering sparks around us. For a heartbeat, we were locked together in the center of that nightmare, his roar ripping through my bones, my own shout lost inside it.

And then, somehow, I was still standing and he was not.

The Minotaur collapsed, the light in his eyes flickering out like a torch in the wind. For a second, I saw not a monster but a victim of someone else’s cruelty, just like me. Then the labyrinth reminded me where we were. The walls groaned. Dust rained down. I grabbed the thread and ran.

We escaped—me, the other youths, Ariadne. The sea air outside felt like the first real breath I’d taken in years. People love that part of the story: clever hero, brave princess, monster dead, future wide open.

But that’s not where my story hurts the most.

On the way back to Athens, I made a mistake people never let me forget. My father had given an order: if I survived, we were to change the ship’s black sails for white ones so he’d know from afar that his son lived. After days without sleep, after blood and guilt and the heavy silence between Ariadne and me once I made choices I still don’t know how to defend… I forgot.

The ship sailed toward Athens with black sails.

From the cliffs, my father watched. They say he saw those dark flags and believed his fear had finally come true—that the son he had only just acknowledged was dead because he’d dared to stand up where his father never had. Overwhelmed by grief and guilt, he threw himself into the sea.

By the time our ship reached the harbor, the city buzzed not with joy but with the news that the king was gone. I stepped onto the pier a hero in everyone’s mouth… and an orphan in my own heart.

People crowned me. They cheered my name. They called me “savior,” “monster-slayer,” “king.” They carved my story into stone, sang it in the streets, turned my pain into something children recite at festivals.

But at night, when the noise dies, I am still the boy standing in front of a rock, asking why he wasn’t enough to be claimed. I am the young man in a labyrinth, staring at a creature who never asked to be born, realizing we were both carrying our fathers’ sins on our shoulders. I am the son who forgot to change the sails and lost his second chance at hearing, “I’m sorry” from the only man who ever owed him those words.

You know what no one tells you about being a legend?
You can save a city and still fail the little boy you once were.

So here I am, years later, king of Athens, with statues in my image and stories that make me sound fearless. I’m not fearless. I was angry. I was tired of being hidden. I was desperate to make my existence undeniable.

I killed a monster, yes. But I also inherited a crown built on compromises and cowardice. And every time someone praises my courage, part of me wants to ask them: whose pain did you ignore so you could sleep at night?

Maybe you’re reading this and thinking it’s just mythology, just an old story. But ask yourself: how many “Theseus” boys and girls live among us right now? Children hidden because they’re inconvenient. People sacrificing themselves to clean up messes their parents made. Kids boarding ships—literal or metaphorical—because the adults in charge are too afraid to fight the monsters directly.

I don’t have answers. I have scars. I have memories of a father who loved too late and a monster who never got to be anything else. I have a city that chants my name and a sea named after the man I couldn’t save from himself.

That’s my confession. Not the polished version sung by poets, but the raw one that keeps me awake when even the gods go quiet.

If you were me—if you had been the hidden child, the angry hero, the king who lost his father because of black sails and bad choices—would you still call yourself a legend? Or just a survivor trying to make sense of a story he never asked to star in?

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